Spinning on the Sidewalk

I've had a fairly crappy past two weeks.

I know... great way to start a blog!

It's true though.... I'm dealing with the realization that I'm not where I want to be at this point in my life.

I miss school... I miss having a life, not that I had much of one to begin with... I miss so much right now that I can't even list it all.

My judgment has failed me, mt reason has failed me..... I have failed me.

Yeah, it's a bit melodramatic, but I'm allowed.

My jaw is sore from being manipulated back into place. How it got OUT of place I'll never know. My chiropractor said I'm carrying waaaaaay too much stress in my neck and shoulders, I need to relax more. I found out today that my new position at work got cut because of budget issues, so the job I've been working on for almost the past year I won't get.

Adding to all this stress if the fact that a few close friends of mine are separating. I talk to one or both of them each day and I'm trying to help them work things out... Honestly, it's wearing on me a lot.

At 23 my life plan has gone far off of track and I'm trying to right it.

Once I get my taxes sorted out I'll be applying for schools.... mostly Ohio ones since that's where I live :P

I'm going to be reevaluating my work. Is this what I want to do? I've been working for the parks for almost four years and I've gone nowhere in the system. If I'm putting that kind of effort into things, I need to know I'll be getting something back.... like a living wage.

New car is a biggie. I love Baby, but she's 13 at this point and she's been hangin on for the last two years. My '65 Mustang will have to wait for a while, unless I will the Lottery.

Hmmmmmm....... I suppose if all else fails I do have my back-up plan of being the crazy cat lady.


On a happier note, it's warming up. Over 70 for the past two days, and I got to do somethings I sorely miss in winter... walking around without a coat and driving around with the music on and the windows down! It may not be a kick arse song, but 'Sleep to Dream Her' by DMB is an awesome song to drive to on a sunny day.

That's all for now... I'm off to make dinner and watch a movie.