Mindlessness

It was beautiful out today. Well, beautiful for October in MI. Temps close to 70, sunny, a light breeze... I didn't even have to wear a coat to work this afternoon. For the most part, I didn't even mind going in on my day off, and going in early on my day off.... *pouts*

Despite the weather, and things being nice for the day, I felt like something was wrong. It's one of those things you can't really explain right away. So, of course, I just had to think about it.

I think I figured it out in the end. I feel like I've lost something. I have so much, and I'm happy for all of it, but somethings just not there like it used to be. Is it a physical something? Mental? Spritual? I have no idea. I'm just missing something that I had.

I haven't felt like this for a while. I'm just tired... that kind of tired where it feels like everything's been drained from your body and you just.... you just want it back...... I want me back. Where did I go?

I need a hug......