I tried

I tried to be that girl again, the one he fell in love with. I tried to be my old self, laughing and smiling whenever I could, just because I could. I tried not to think about everything that may or may not happen now... I really did try to be the girl he fell in love with.

I can't be her now. I can't be me.

I can't smile when I feel like I'm falling apart. Sure I may be almost like myself when I'm with other people, but I'm quiter. I don't talk about myself, I don't talk about the future. I can't. Seeing a couple kiss almost send me into tears.

I'm trying to get over him, but I don't think my body wants to. The fact that he won't talk to me at all hurts more then the end of our romantic relationship did.

I'm tired of caring, I'm tired of not being able to sleep well in my own damn bed because I keep thinking of him.

I'm just tired...